It sucks I keep forgetting to write in here.

I'm still upset and crying at least once a day. I'm in love with my best friend and she can never know. I still always think about Summerboy. I am alone and sad and mediocre.

Sorry, I don't really have much to say. Other than that I am a fat waste of space and want to move to the middle of nowhere and become a waitress in a diner in a small town on the other side of the country. And never fall in love with anyone and never have friends because any type of relationship at all is just a recipe for disaster and emotional torture.